That’s how I feel lately. I feel like someone has beat me down over and over again.
All I wanted to do today was stay in bed, get up to eat, pee and get back in bed.
Yea, that’s not going to happen with two small children to look after. Charles was off today, so I did get to do what I consider rest. Another person here to play with the girls, fix food, help with potty breaks, and clean up messes. I did feel a little rested today. We all slept in a bit this morning. That’s always nice.
I feel so bottom heavy. My body feels so worn down, and I have anywhere from 7-11 weeks to go before this baby arrives. I’m not expecting he/she to come before 40 weeks, but it’s nice to say I could have 7 weeks left.
We are gathering our supplies for the birth, and we need to have everything by the time I’m 34 weeks. I forgot how the 3rd trimester can kick your butt.
Lately I’m feeling a little disconnected, and not mentally, or emotionally prepared for this baby. I’m not worried about clothes, diapers, birth, or breastfeeding. I’m worried that I won’t have enough time for each child. How will I balance everything going on in my life? I’m already worrying about the state my house is going to be in in the weeks and months following his/her arrival.
I worry too much.
Someone told me that is was ok to not feel ready. That I didn’t need to feel ready until it was time to push. That made me feel so much better. As far as I’ve come from being a perfectionist, there are parts still lingering in there.
I felt like a weight had been lifted. I felt like it was ok to not be completely prepared in every way possible.
I have also slacked with my blogging the past few days. I haven’t visited some of the other bloggers I like to visit. I know I’m not expected to do these things in a certain time frame, but I like to. It helps me feel connected, and it’s fun for me.
Charles keeps reminding me not to take on too much, and he is right. I try to do everything all at once, and on my own. I love feeling accomplished though. I almost can’t help it!
Lying around today, doing nothing felt great. It’s always nice to have days like today.
I really am going to try my best to take it easy over the next several weeks.
I keep telling myself I have a choice in everything I do.