Feeling a little off lately. I think it’s a combination of the seasons changing. I love Fall….it’s my favorite season, but every year o start to feel a little down. The days are shorter already and there’s this feeling in the air that I can’t quite describe. I’ve been thinking of caramel apples, hot chocolate with marshmallows, and cooler weather.
Wearing high heel-knee length boots, or boots of any kind. Yup, I love Fall.
I was watching the kids play out front yesterday and they were so happy, completely in the moment….how do they do that? I’ve been watching how they play and interact with each other. Wondering if they’re picking up on my mood. Looking for signs of unhappiness. Always wondering if I’m being a good mom. Am I being the mom they need? Kiah came into the kitchen last night, put her arms around me and told me she loved me.
I like to sit back and just observe them sometimes. Remembering what it was like to be a kid, trying to get back to living in the moment and not bring tomorrow’s possible troubles into today.
I’ve been thinking some tall therapy would be great, but I can’t afford it right now. Talking with friends, blogging, and knitting will suffice. Several people have suggested exercise. I know it would help and it would give me a more incentive to get up before everyone else. I really like my sleep though. But even an hour alone in the mornings could help.
Trying to come up with ways to generate extra income from home. Seriously considering selling whatever I can make. I have a ton of ideas swirling around in my head if I decided to open an etsy shop. It will take a lot of time and work. I’ve thought about it off and on for months now. I suppose I could step out on faith…if it doesn’t work out at least I tried. And I can go on making things for my family.
For now I’m starring at this pretty patons wool yarn trying to decide what to make with it. Cause I need a 5th or would this be 6th project on my needles? The chocolate is there simply because it tastes good and its my chocolate of choice for the moment.